Reba says it best...Is There Life Out There

Bootsie is feeling a lot like what Reba describes in her song "Is There Life Out There".  Like the song says "She's done what she should should she do what she dares"...Lord knows I want to!!

Feeling so alive and wanting to experience life, but being tied to someone that doesn't feel the same is really hard and frustrating.  Not talking about major events, just going to the grocery story can be an adventure or at least a light hearted and fun trip, cooking dinner, working in the yard or doing a project can be done with laughter and smiles.

Trying to be upbeat and positive to motivate others and getting no where is exhausting!  Being an  upbeat person myself (most of the time) I have a hard time understanding inactivity and depressed tendencies.  We all have bad days and days we don't feel quite right and are out of sorts, but when it becomes a way of life its time to do something differently...you keep doing the same thing you'll keep getting the same results!!  It's a vicious circle...that I need to break...some how I have to figure out how to "light a fire" and get others motivated and interested in life again.

Life is too short to let it pass you by! Like Reba's song says, We've done what we should now it's time to do what we want and dare.  But, damn it you have to get off the couch!  Nothing is going to get done by itself!!  Frustration is a hard emotion to control!   Makes me want to explode!

Habits are so hard to break, coming home from work, popping a beer, having dinner and then spending the rest of the night on the couch is not my idea of a good time.  At least not every night...sometimes chilling out is a must and I do my share. And sometimes the couch can be a fun place..."sometimes" being the key word!!

I want to feel happy, special and alive again.  And I want the person with me to feel the same...I know that's not too much to ask for!!  I'm just stumped on how to accomplish this goal.

It's a two way street...I can give and try all I want to, but if the other party doesn't participate it's all for naught!!


Nothing works, hints, suggestions, anger, crying or throwing a fit get his attention...the last resort is simply to leave.  That has never been an option until now...but it feels like that's the only way to get his attention to realize I'm not happy with our relationship right now and I want to work on it...but again, it's a two way street and right now I feel it's a one way street and the street is leading down the road.  It hasn't always been this way and I want to get back to the way it was!!

This current cycle is wearing me out!!

Feeling sad, frustrated, angry and tired...it doesn't have to be this way...a little effort would go a long way. 

Lord help me figure this out!!

Life is good, keep it real!

Memory Lane

This was actually written March 15, 2014...not sure why I didn't post!  Even through I wrote this two years ago re-reading brought all the memories back so clearly!  Some things you never forget!


Its amazing how wonderful a few hours can be when spent reconnecting and reminiscing.  Making new memories and laughing like kids and wishing you were kids again when the rules of life were different.  A trip down memory lane can be an invigorating and enlighten trip.  Wish the trip didn't have to end.

Back to the real world!!

Life is good, keep it real.